Pets

There are times in our lives where we go through losses... losses of family , close friends, and like me right now the question of putting down a pet. I find this one of the hardest because you cant speak to them and ask them what they want but when you look into their eyes you can see the pain they are in. My whole life I've lived with dogs, from the moment I was born I had a dog, I wasnt a whiny kid asking for a dog because I already had one. The question or idea of losing one kills me, I've lost a dog before and honestly I'll never forget her! But the idea of losing another one is beginning to slowly rip me apart, afterall I've lived with them my whole life!! The idea of losing someone or something close to you in your life is like losing your left arm, it slowly rips off and rips you apart not knowing what to do any more! I've spent my morning bursting into tears thinking of the possibilities after today, the fact that I might never see her again makes me want to explode, I dont know what to think or do now.

Pressure

Pressure is something that comes with the word hsc or exams. I am not sure if everyone feels this way but the pressure of an exam and its result weighs solely on your abilities. So im not worried about what others think but I feel the worrying or the stress solely comes from the fact that the results judge your ability to study and to do well in exams. But yes these exams dont judge your life or anything but they do tell you your ability and well this scares me. Coming face to face with my brain, is how I like to think of it. Im not really smart, im not a logical person, I like to think of things like emotions and things outside of the box. But these exams will tell me if I have the ability to study and do well or be consistent in uni, if ill be able to cope with whats to come. Yes hsc doesnt judge your life, yes im young and I can make mistakes because I have a lifetime ahead of me. But doesnt mean this exam isnt important, especially to me. Though others have told me to not worry as it doesnt pick my career or my future life for me, its still important! This is probably because im young, young foolish. Because these things can be forgotten quicker than it happened. But to me right now they seem important, probably like any other kid. To us this is like the exam into the real world, and what we decide on the other side is our ticket to happiness. We know no better, because we are young and we have been spoon fed this information, of universities and the prestige of going to uni. We dont know of anything else.But yes this is what I believe to be pressurre, because you cant feel it without it being planted into your head with you believing it at a young age! But this hsc and these exams are planted into our heads that, this is whatwwill decide your future and your ticket to the real world, this exam is purely to test your abilities,if you will survive or not!