Tall

Honestly I hate being tall!! People keep saying to be that being tall is good but honestly it sucks!! I used to think being tall was good but after I kept growing to be extremely tall I hate it, absolutely hate it!! The main issue I have with being tall is people ridiculing me about being tall, like seriously fuck off I don't want to be this tall, I didn't choose to be this tall it just happened!! Like sometimes I want to scream at people and punch them in the face and say "If your gonna tease me so much about my height, then fuck off just because you cant grow this fucking tall isn't my fucking problem!!". One of the main reasons I hate my height is because when I go to school and I get teased about my height but when I come home to my family I also get teased like "Fuck off Mum its you that made me this fucking height not me!!" I hate how she always says "Why are you wearing heels your already tall enough" Well fuck off Mum if I want to wear fucking heels like I want to fucking wear heels once in my life and I don't want people to fucking tell to take them off or I'm too tall so I cant wear fucking heels like FUCK OFF!!!! Being tall isn't a choice, its either your born to be tall or your not! Especially when it comes to me actually wearing high heels people always tell me im tall enough why do I need to wear them, well because I want to be like everyone else, I want to look pretty in my dress with my high heels and pretty hair, I want to fit in. I am sick of not fitting in anywhere and not being able to talk to anyone about this like people don't understand how it is for me, I am either the tall freak or just in all a freak! Boys don't talk to me cause they just don't, like I don't trust people easy I know that but really you have to tease me about my fucking height to get on my level, like come on guys grow the fuck up, grow some balls and move on with life!! To be honest I have had enough with being tall, yes with some people its fun and I laugh and make jokes but with some they don't know how to joke appropriately! But honestly if someone else makes a joke about my height I will break down crying or just ignore them forever! The main reason of my I am writing this is because I spoke to my mum about getting heels for my dress and she suggested me to get flats. WHY! This is what I hate! And I finally broke out and just told her off, like I get this at school and I come home and I get it again like WOW! The comments like 'oh your too tall to wear heels', or 'how will you ever find a man in your life' and especially when people cant win an argument with me so they bring up my height and go on and on about it like seriously, FUCK! But the thing is I am worried about these things and these bother me! I'm a girl too I want to wear heels, I want to hug someone who is like a head taller than me, especially when I wear heels he is still taller than me! But I get how sometimes my height can be intimidating and guys don't like tall girls but like will I ever find something to make me happy or someone. Like I just feel like I'm an outcast from everyone else in the world.