Confusion

I feel shit today, I feel bad because I snapped at my friends and I feel like i am losing it! I keep thinking about nikola which is weird and I haven't recently. He was alone today in business and I felt like I should speak to him and I had a feeling he wanted me to but I dunno I actually think I'm losing my mind. I keep snapping at parents and I think it's because I have been starving and I have not gotten a good nights sleep. I feel like I am actually losing it today!!!!! But I am feeling really emotional today! I honestly want a boyfriend, maybe that's just today, I feel like vomitting and I have a headache! I just want to be together with someone today and someone to hug me, I know today's just one of those days but it honestly hurts sometimes feeling like this. But for the rest of the night I am just going to eat something and do work and hopefully I can forget and get a good nights sleep :/