Hello again

I just wanted to post a post of hello because i actually havent been writing any posts really and even though i kind of needed to during the weeks gone by i havent because i was usually to lazy and havent really been able to express my feelings very well. So i have been busy and i have had a lot going on but i dont know where to start but im going to just give a quick summary of everything basically.

The first thing would be school and stress, well i have kind of realised that im kinda to young to stress, nows not the time for my to have a mental break down and freak out! Nows the time to relax a bit and just go with the flow. I have realised this from my Sister Fiona and from the best girl ever for me to have met Jessica. From each of them i learnt a few quotes and i wrote them down
-Dont think, just do!
-Go with the flow and dont stress!
These are from Jessica and thw others are more like life goals to keep me on track.
-Have small goals to achieve and not big ones to make me stress!
-And the main Goal in my life should be: Happiness!
The last one is from my sister and as it says im just going to concentrate on being happy now! Before i used to worry to much, freak out, overthink and just plain stress over and over again but now i have realised there is no need for me to! Because how is my future going to be any good if i keep stressing, being happy should be whats important to me!

School to me recently hasnt been all that bad and to be honest i think im getting back on track cause i have a system going on slowly :) i went to a library on the weekend and i think it was a good way to get out of the house and breathe some fresh air!! :)

I still have feelings for Nikola but i dont think they are that strong anymore! The only moment this week probably that i got nervous was when i got a message on my facebook and hoping it was from Nikola. But as per usual it got my hopes up and then they plummet back down knowing that it would never be for something more than asking for help for a subject!

Some days i wonder whether i am being truly sane and if i am doing something that makes me happy but then i wake up and realise i wouldnt want to be anywhere else. Sometimes i say i just cant wait to leave school and get away from everything but then i would miss things! Im not actually sure what i want but i am hoping i can find out before i leave school, but for now ill just go with the flow and see where it takes me :)

I think i am missing a few things but i will probably post another post telling you guys the rest :)