Emotions

This week ever since Friday I have been really really well emotional and mainly angry! Especially today I was really snappy and just taking my anger out on everyone, like I didn't mean to but it just happens. But to be honest I feel like I have been holding a lot of anger in and I just wanna scream and punch everything and everyone till they all disappear. To be honest it is my birthday next week and I aint too happy about it and usually I am. Right now I just feel drained and angry and just want everyone to not remember that it is my birthday and for it to go away. I am not in the mood to celebrate or have fun! I it all and just wanna die! Like that is how angry I am. My anger makes me sad which makes me wanna cry but I feel like I need a good cry to let it all out and scream and just sleep! Sleep forever and into the beyond! I don't care about school and I hate it and don't want it anymore! like what am I doing here at school, acting like I understand everything and acting like I care and don't care and like I'm fine all the time! I need a neutralizer, I need to see my nieces and nephews because they are what keep me going through the week! I need to hug them and kiss them and just give them all the love I can! I wanna cry so bad rn!!!!!!UGHHHHHHHHHH FUCKKKKKKK LIKE OMGGGGG DIEEEEE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK And that's the other thing I have been swearing like no tomorrow!!