I NEED TO STOP!!!!

Lately I have encountered many, like many, Like ALOT of times I spoke and encountered talking to Nikola and Yes I have been ignoring him and trying not to speak with him. But sometimes I cant help but think he wants to speak with me and well I don't like it, well I do but I am not supposed to! The whole day I didn't want to speak to him and yes I ignored him but conversed but avoided it when I could. But one thing that caught my attention the most was when I was in modern history and the teacher told him to hand out sheets and well you cant say no. anyway he gave sheets to me and my friend Sonja and she was still writing stuff and I was drinking water, not caring and just staring into space but he gave us our sheets very I don't know to say but very dramatically. He kind of flung them on our table and I looked down and he was moving on to give more out but he said "Your supposed to say thank you" and well he honestly didn't have to say this comment but he did and it bothered me because it kind of seemed like he was trying to get my attention. Anyway later that afternoon I spoke to him and well we just had a weird but kind of normal convo and well I was confused and needed some help figuring what was going on. Well I texted Jessica telling her everything but mainly just the convo, and she said seems like he had mixed feelings for me and this was only when I told her about the convo we had when we were walking back home but I am not sure what she will say about the other times. Like the one about class and the handing out of the sheets. I know what Jessica will say she will say he has feelings for me but I don't know!!!! I hate this so much!!! Its giving me a headache and just when I was moving on with my life! I could talk to him the whole time until it came to him handing out those sheets! It took me off guard!! I still need to stop though!! when we were on the train trip home I could make eye contact with him but not for too long and I just felt like he was (excuse the cheeziness) staring into my soul which was weird!!! I need to stop thinking of him in this way!!! Ugh But one thing that I'm curious about the most was he kept saying "Cheanda why you talking shit about David for?" and this is David G one of my good friends from year 7 and I was like WTF!!!! But you see David is in my English class and that lesson I was laughing and being normal me and talking to David and laughing and we listened to music and danced and sang (ironic English class and we didn't do any work haha) and I had a feeling he was staring at me but I always have this instinct but I don't know this time because whenever I laughed out of nowhere and stuff he kind of, how do you say, flinched and looked up but I saw this from the corner of my eye so I don't know. UGHHHHHHHH So many questions and no real answers :( But still what bothers me a lot is that he still might like Vivian which could be true or not or it never was true but I don't know and it's giving me a headache and I just don't want to think about it anymore!!! I NEED TO STOP!!!!! What I found most funny part of the say was when he was so surprised that I swore haha and he said I had changed from the previous Cheanda and yet he thinks I am the type of person to hook up with a guy at a party hahaha