I thought i would do some blogging dada dada daaaa

I'm in the mood to blog today, not particularly because I want to just because I feel like typing up some random stuff haha Today I did some shopping and it was extremely fun because I bought a lot of clothes which I'm excited about wearing. But I still need to pay people back money so I cant use too much :( I am hoping tomorrow that I will only have to use $30 tomorrow or even just $25 and I would even like it to be $35. Just as long as I have a substantial about of money left haha I have no idea what else to say though LOL This week I have so much going on! On Wednesday we have our annual swimming carnival and apparently this one is meant to be quite big because they renamed the houses. And on Friday is the day to be honest I have been dreading its Valentines day :( Valentines Day is the worst time of year for me besides my birthday haha One reason I hate Valentines Day is because basically its a day for couples and people who want to be couples but for single people like me it's misery!! Like to be honest I don't need these couples around me celebrating their love for one another, especially when I might hope to expect a rose and not actually get one! Around Valentines day I kind of expect something, I do it unconsciously but I know its actually a deep thought at the bottom of my heart. I just want a rose is that so hard haha What I actually find worse is when my friends get me a rose because it makes me feel insecure and petty but this year I know one of my friends Sandy got me a rose which I am kind of grateful for but deep down I know I seem pitiful to others. Getting a rose from a friend is completely different from getting a rose from someone with feelings for you, like someone you like. So yes I know you can all probably guess I am hoping and wanting a rose from Nikola but I definitely know I wont get one!! This weekend started with me not thinking about him that much and changed to me thinking a lot about him, especially when I have nothing else to do than think. As I said in the previous song I want this to go away as fast as possible, actually I need this to go away!!! Anyway night and wish me good luck for this week cause I know I'll need it haha I'll probably be blogging a lot this week hahaha