Lately i feel like i dont wanna go to school anymore and i feel lost as what to do. I feel as if i quit now i am losing or if i stay im gonna be miserable for a long time. I am confused as to why im here and if i really belong here. I try my best and all that but i still feel lost and confused and gone and drained mainly. I am not sure if i feel this way because of the lack of sleep but i feel this way. To be honest i know the reason i wanna drop out and leave and stay home and the reason i cant sleep. I am scared and nervous all the time and worried, my Dad has been acting strange lately. He went to the docters on friday and came home saying 'Dad is very tired now and weak. My body is very week' And honestly i was extremely worried as to how things would turn out. I feel scared and like i should be taking care of him but he wants me to go school and stuff. And then my sister worries me because lately she has been getting like 1,2,3 hours sleep only and im nervous. She acts all happy but i feel like shes mentally drained and well lost. Also school jusy stresses me out and i dont need this right now like all the people here just piss me off now and i cant deal with any of it anymore!! And the main reason why i am not looking forward to my birthday is because i had a dream of someone getting hurt on my birthday and it being all my fault. I wanna cry really loud and just want them to stay home and be safe but i know nowhere is safe and i cant predict the future cause it all might be fine!
so confused right now in what to do! Sighhhhhhh
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