First time

Yesterday night was my first night going to a hotel party and drinking! I had a lot of fun and was kinda disappointing at the same time. Most people would disaprove of drinking at my age but honestly its good old fun and a great distraction from the real world for a while.

I wasnt drunk but i had quite a lot to drink i guess?! I had 6 shots of vodka and i only got tipsy, Jessica told me that i would get tipsy and slightly drunk at 3-4 shots but i had 6 which i was really proud of! The alcohol kinda effected me i guess, but made me extremely red!!

The most awkward and weird thing of the night was one of my guy friends Jonothan was trying to spoon me and just completely weird!! We arent that close and it was just weird cause its Jonothan. I got kicked out of my bed cause someone stole me spot and so Jonothan said come there is a spare bed. I was like ok then and i went to sleep and he was like yeah i should sleep to cause he tired. And later on one of the guys came into bed too and well there were 4 in a bed and i was squashed in the middle!! My hair was stuck under Jonothan and i needed to pee and move and get a drink. So i got up (hardly) and i did all that but i didnt want to go back to the middle so i stayed outside for a bit. Then one of the boys came out of the room and Jonothan also came out too and came to call me to come back to bed. Now at this stage i was like ngaw how sweet he cares about me, that i need sleep. Anyway i went back to bed and this time was completely comfy until another one of the guys jumped into bed and made it squashy again. So Jono was extremely close to me but honestly i didnt care! I was slowly falling asleep when he placed his hand on the side of my hip like lazily and i was like wtfffff! I was like huh?! And then he slowly started to move his arm into place and his hand started to touch my elbow and he kinda like stroked it (ewww chills!), then his chin or forehead was on my back and his leg brushed up on mine. EWW OMFG I CANT THINK ABOUT IT!! And well being who i am i freaked out slightly going omg he is so close to me!! Like im not used to people bein that close to me when im sleeping!! And basically i brushed him off cause i faked waking up and realising his hand was on me and etc and basically moved it back to him which was so rude now that i think about it!!

I have nothing against spooning and nothing against Jonothan but it honestly creeped the shit out of me cause i wasnt used to it!! I reckon Jono thought he should take care of me cause i kinda took care of him when his lip was bleeding cause he got kneed to the face. I think i nearly took care of everyone that night i swear haha i think when im tipsy i am a very caring person (im not bragging or anything! Its what i think!!) I kinda liked being spooned but it was so unexpected and weird and just OMG!! I dunno what to think atm!

I was slightly disappointed that Nikola didnt go to the party but im glad he didnt cause i would have felt weird and uncomfortable! Im so tired right now though! I had 3 hours of sleep and just came home and slept :)

But tomorrow is school again which is sad! And i have to do a speech in front of the whole school -_- I am really really hoping it will rain tomorrow but i dont think that will happen haha Hopefully after some more sleep now i can start tomorrow fresh and feeling good!!