Mind games

Yesterday and today i had a very strange encounter with Nikola. First he was sweet to me yesterday and etc, he spoke to me on fb asking for help in english hw but i said i was busy and etc. But when i said i can help you later if you want he stopped replying. I know he saw the message but he refused to speak to me. And today nothing really happened but he ignored me and didnt talk to me in english or he was obviously in a bad mood but later me and my friend Gina were walking to the station and we were quite far from Nikola. He was crossing the road when we were at the lights and he turned around and we had awkward eye contact. Also before that we had business and it was double so in the break we went to the toilet me and my friend emma and Nikola and his friend Peter were getting sausages on a roll. And they left straight after and when me and emma went back to class and sat down Nikola walked in and looked at me, yet again awkward eye contact. And also when he had walked in at the beginning of the lesson i felt him stare. I just keep having this feeling that he stares at me -_-

Also a few days before his friend Oskar and me were talking and well, remember a while back i said Nikola defended me about my height and we compared heights and he was taller. Well that was after social night and now Oskar also said the same thing cause we compared height but he defended me too but not really. Well this got me thinking that it means nothing that Nikola said that but Jessica explained he defended me while everyone was teasing me and gave me a headache! And whenever i speak about Nikola to someone i also go really red in the face and blush which gives me the shits cause its so embarrassing!!

This boy gives me all sorts of headaches!! One minute being nice to me and then next being an ass!! I want to stop feeling this way about him so i can just have fun and move on with my life!! Pisses me off how stupid i get when i am around him or even talking about him!! And when it comes to him i over analyse every situation involving him -_- I really hope someone better comes around now cause i am sick of these mind games this boy plays!!

I never realised how much it hurts to see the person you like sit there and not even have a second thought of you. I see him on facebook, i see out previous conversation and how he saw it and never replied and it honestly really hurts me to see how much he doesnt care! But i guess i have to get used to it cause its the actual truth!