Update

Well its been 2 days since i last blogged and my last blog was about the boy and this one will kinda involve that but other stuff to.

So yes i did say i would move on and yes i am doing that and doing it pretty well atm. Well actually doing it pretty well as in ignoring it pretty well. Even though i still think about him and i have that slight hope i might run into him, i am moving on slowly. The thing is even though i know i am moving on from him i still want to talk about him or tell someone how i feel about this whole thing.

I know i have Jiji but lately i cant seem to bring myself to speak to her cause i feel like she needs her space after all i spent a whole week with her. She is probably sick of me but i miss her alot i have just been sitting at home in bed most days. I dont really have anyone to talk to, like i know i have Jiji but i dont want to feel like a burden towards her. This boy thing has my head in a knot and i just need it all out now! I know i am the type of girl to like a guy for a while and be obsessed with him for a bit but i dont want him to be that anymore! Usually i get over a guy cause they find out or i basically confess to them but with him, Jiji and i only know! I dont want to tell him cause me liking him would be an embarrassment.

He would never go for a girl like me and i just keep making situations up in my head of if he did. I keep thinkin maybe he does like me but the truth is he probably has never thought of me that way! Right now i need someone to talk to but i cant talk to Jiji cause i am afraid i will drive he away like my other bestie. And i cant tell anyone else cause its way to embarrassing! I am going out with a couple of my girlfriends on wednesday and i am scared we wont have anything to talk about so i will tell them.

I know one thing though! I have this other girlfriend whom i used to always speak to and still speak to but she moved schools so we dont speak much now. But i whenever we meet up we always have things to talk about and she always understands and gives good advice like Jiji. But probably since Jiji is sick of me i am only going to tell that one other person. I know i need to get over him but he is really stuck in my mind this time, like i used to have little crushes on him and stuff but now its like he is stuck! Sometimes well most times i just wish someone else who is better for me will come around and sweep me off my feet but that only happens in movies and tv shows. But i would rather have something or someone else to think about other than him!

Right now my holidays are ok and my real holidays start on wednesday! But tomorrow is my Mummy and daughter day and i am looking forward to it :) Yay shopping, coffee and lunch with Mummy! Hopefully by the end of this week i will be completely over him :) (i just cant see him again or my feelings will be back!)