Today i realised why do i try? Why is it i try so hard to fit in? Why is it that i try and make an effort to get up and make plans with people? Why is it that i try and get boys attention when i know they dont care? Why do i care and try so hard for peoples attention, friendship, love and just fit in somewhere? My to all these questions is i should just stop and not care about anything!
Right now i am lost and tired! I dont want to think to much and care so much anymore! I just wanna have fun, laugh and enjoy life! All i did today was go beach and relax woth an old friend, and even though i told her all my problems and issues she didnt bring them up! Which made me feel good about myself and gave me time to think, all i really need to do is relax! I realised i am always so tensed up and worried about what others think of me and how i should look and act. But i need to relax more and keep calm, i just want to feel good about myself!
When school starts again i am just gonna relax and keep my cool. Go with the flow and concentrate on school :) not on what others think of me! But since its holidays i am just gonna sleep and enjoy whats coming next :) I feel excited to whats coming next, I am not gonna keep going out and making plans for the holidays but if i do its just to go beach to relax. I overthink and complicate my own life but really i should just keep calm and go with the flow, like when i am jumping and diving over and under waves at the beach :)
The thing i am looking forward to next is abit of shut eye which i am about to get :)
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