Family

Today i told my sisters that i have been quite stressed lately. But lately i have felt pretty close to them and it feels great but one thing i have always, i guess needed and wanted to do was to tell them how i feel about my relationship with them. Everytime i tell them something about myself and they say i love you or they say they are here for me, it brings tears in my eyes cause i feel close to them, touched and that they care about me. Well i am gonna write today a "letter" which i wanted to tell them today.

Dear My darling older sisters,
I honestly love you all! I know you say that i shouldnt look up to you guys but i do! And i know i do because i miss you guys so much all the time! I usually only get to see Julie ans Fiona once a week and my nieces and nephews too! But this week i missed you guys so much! And i honestly really wish to see your guys all the time because you make me laugh and dont make me feel pressured!

I especially miss my nephews and nieces and it honestly make me cry that i cant see them whenever i want and whenever i can but i do understand why but i still really miss them and you guys! I have fun with my family and that way i dont feel so alone. Our house feels so empty, when i am bored or i feel stresses and want someone to talk to or someone to just interact with i have no one! Gigi (my oldest sister whome lives with us we call her that! Thats not her name!) is always in her room and doesnt know how to interact with me without bringing up school and stuff. I am tired and i feel like all my energy has been sucked away. This week and the last few weeks i have been dealing with some important decisions and thats my hsc subjects, changing them, drop this subject and then pick up this subject. Its really annoying and frustrating and on top of all of that i have been helping my friends with their decisions and its just so sad!! I honestly just miss you guys and wish you were here so i could talk with yous! Love you guys so much and i care for all of you so much and when you guys Say or love me or something i feel so loved and great and i tear up! I know its weird! Dont judge :(

So this is my letter to my sisters, i know i have more but i cant think of it right now :/