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Tonight i started reading this book and i realised in the book one kf the characters is going through what i am going through. That is getting over someone and trying not to think about it too much and honestly i have gotten over Nikola!

But just like in the photo i everytime his name is mentioned i turn slightly or slightly look. I cant help this but i have been accepting this and its been happening less often. But the other day he defended me when i was as usual arguing about something stupid with my friend Thanh. And it gave me a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. As soon as he did it i felt a rush of heat run through my body and i couldnt help but smile but luckily no one saw. Earlier in the lesson we had, i had really weird eye contact with him, like we looked and turned to each other at the exact same time and it froze for a second and he looked away quickly (he was getting told off so i think he was embarrassed)

Jessica told me maybe he likes me but cant make his mind up about me and i kinda thought that too. Because it felt like he was ignoring me and trying to get away from me all week but i hadnt looked to far into it and thought nothing of it. But after Jessica said that it made me think, I had been getting over him and honestly i didnt care. Even when he spoke to me nothing and i didnt care but that one moment of mention and that one moment he showed chilvary it got me thinking again and tonight i realised will i ever actually get "over" him? I like him and i have admitted that to myself but if he likes me, he needs to do something about it. I told Jessica "if he really likes me, he will do something about it" because i am not gonna wait around for an answer and keep playing these mind games. But most likely i will just get over it cause i think things over too much in my mind. By the end of this weekend i will be back to getting over him and can finally move on :)