Not angry, not sad, just want to be left alone..

Sometimes i just like to be left alone. Its not because i am angry or sad, its just i like to be left alone!

When i am angry i like to be left alone but i vent to someone in the end. When i am sad i end up having a good cry or think and ends up talking to someone. But when i want to be left alone it just means i want to escape reality and live in my thoughts for awhile.

When i am alone i think of all these different senarios and possibilities even though i know its not real. Even though being alone can be lonely, i live and think in my mind. Being alone is my time and its the time where i can be and who and what i wanna be. But the bad thing about being alone is that the end result you feel sad, angry or just plain emotional. Cause when your alone you think of the "what ifs", "maybe if", "the i dont have this" and "the wish i had this".

I finished watching a show called awkward and it had a segment or episodes main question or statement "think about yourself". This got me thinking of me and so i am, i am gonna stand up for myself and try to fit in and not let anything as stupid and boys out of my mind.