Today was the first day back to school and it seemed normal. I only had about two hours of school today and i gotta say it was boring. Starting year 12 is tiring cause you get many lectures and "talks" from teachers about what we should be doing and etc.
Two big things which i would have loved to have avoided would be (1) Getting results back fron any subject about my yearly exams. And (2) Seeing the guy who pops into my head quite alot. Its kinda hard to avoid both, getting results back always happens unless the teacher keeps forgetting and etc. And seeing the guy cant be avoided cause he is basically in all my classes.
But other than those few issues the day was fine :) I was kinda happy to see him but i wasnt sure how i was feeling towards and about him. I felt like i wanted to see him and talk to him but at the same time didnt really need to bother, so i was confused. I know for sure that i still have some kind of interest in him cause I keep looking over or trying to listen to him haha. Right now im not sure and i want to speak to Jiji about him but for now i need to wait to be sure im over him or im into him. But i know if i was into him i cant do it, and i couldnt actually date him!! I dunno what to think anymore and i am very confused! It felt like he wanted me to walk with him this afternoon and that he wanted to talk to me and get my attention but its all in my head! At least it had to be... he seemed much more sweeter and back to himself after the holidays, which made me smile but feel strange inside like i do like him but i dont.
I did alot of stationary shopping today and bought alot which i am pleased with :) and when i got home i felt like painting so i decided to start painting a bit and its there on the screen. I am not sure what it says or what its about i just tried to paint abit. When i get bored this is what i do.
To summarise today, i felt confused, sad and angry but hopefully tomorrow i will have a better day :)
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